personal experience

personal experience

A Personal Experience: Ty's Story

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From http://mormonsandgays.org/?hl=en#common-humanity As I started to have feelings, as I hit puberty, into high school and beyond these attractions, I'd never really gave them a lot of heed because I thought whatever it is it doesn't matter, because I can get married and have a family and be happy like anybody else. In high school, I dated a lot ... didn't really have strong romantic or sexual interest in women. But I always thought my focus is my mission. So same thing into college, went to college for a year. Went on my mission, great, great experience. It wasn't until then when all of the sudden dating had a purpose that it all hit the wall. I dated, dated several girls that were the kind of people that I would want to marry. I just kept hitting a wall. There's was nothing in me that really wanted to have any kind of a romantic or intimate relationship with any of these women. I started finding myself having those kinds of feelings for men. And there was resonance of these feelings back in high school but it just wasn't on the radar. It wasn't something that I wanted to address, or that I even felt I needed to address, but now it was something that was becoming a huge block in my forward progression. I hit kind of a crisis point when I was teaching at the MTC and I was in a place where I felt like I was more attuned to the spirit than at any point than I had ever been. Even moreso than my mission. On my mission, I felt like I learned how to be obedient. But it was after my mission that I feel like I learned how to really tune into the spirit of God. As I had this kind of spiritual crisis, I decided at that point I needed to talk with somebody, so I went and talked to my Bishop. I didn't really have anything to confess, I hadn't done anything, I just felt stuck, afraid, and discouraged, kind of hopeless. And so he recommended a counselor, I was at BYU at the time.