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Enza Vita lives in Adelaide, South Australia. Her site is http://enzavita.com. She and her husband Leo Drioli own and operate Inner Self Magazine: http://innerself.com.au/about.php Play or Download link: http://nonduality.com/enzavita27april2013.mp3 Tracks: In the first hour (1:16:38, to be exact) there are blasts of static throughout the interview. If you find the static makes the interview hard to listen to, you may read a transcript of the first 1:16:38 here: http://nonduality.com/enzavita.htm Or skip to 1:16:39, where the last hour is static-free. 0:00 - 4:43 Husband Leo Drioli. Meeting Enza at SAND. Chatting, talking about Enza's name. 4:43 - 17:52 Born in Italy. Going to Australia at age 17. Alice Springs. Coming from Solarino, Sicily. Childhood. 17:52 - 24:09 Family dinners in Solarino. How much of nonduality is stories? 24:09 - 30:36 Continuation of the discussion on going to Australia at age 17. Dealing with her dad who didn't want to let her go. Seeking. Trying to understand her experiences. 30:36 - 35:54 Nature of Enza's seeking. Moving to Adelaide. Meeting her husband Leo Drioli. Making herbal potions. Discovering Nisargadatta's I Am That. 35:54 - 46:15 Current connection with Chogyal Namkhai Norbu http://www.dzogchen.it/. Experience with Zen breathing/meditation teacher. More about resonance with Chogyal Namkhai Norbu stemming from her childhood. Mystery of it. 46:15 - 57:29 Being meditated, significance of. Paradox of getting from here to here. Enza learned to describe her knowing out of questions from her husband Leo. Not having anything to teach. Waiting for the next step as a teacher to become clear. If there were no questions she would have nothing to say. 57:29 - 1:01:58 Waiting for space to open to start teaching. Needing a reason to give teaching. The breast feeding story/analogy to giving a teaching. 1:01:58 - 1:13:11 Terms consciousness and awareness discussed. Coming from consciousness compared to standing as awareness. "I am" as consciousness. Nature of awareness itself. "Dark radiance of pure awareness." Nature of "I am" and how to realize. Why isn't the "I am" awareness promoted in today's nonduality circles? 1:13:11 - 1:16:38 Suffering at the level of relative truth and as inseparable from absolute truth. Embracing both. Practice of presence. In teaching, starting with where a person is at. ON THE TRACKS BELOW THERE IS NO STATIC: 1:16:39 - 1:21:08 Enza changes phone. Chatting about coffee and karaoke. Casual chat. Enza talks about her memory not being too good so she doesn't remember what we were talking about before she switched phones. 1:21:08 - 1:27:34 The event of dropping away, non-separation, or shift in perception, or looking and seeing that she was everything. Everyone is already looking in this way. As a searcher or seeker you are looking for something other than this non-separation. Spiritual people resisting that Enza had this realization. This was seven years ago. 1:27:34 - 1:34:16 Is this realization a big deal? How the initial realization played out for Enza. Not talking about it openly for a few years. Role of meditation in facilitating realization. Not necessary to meditate as a practice. Enza having an inner knowing that this lifetime was for self-realization. 1:34:16 - 1:42:55 Enza feeling that a rope from within was pulling her toward "something" and that it was inevitable. Having trust. Nature of honoring that tug toward the inevitable. Relaxing into the spacious knowingness or "I am." 1:42:55 - 1:48:15 Talking about awareness alone could be boring as it is not the complete picture. Nature of the separate person. We don't need thoughts to know the sharp lucidity. Yet the mind is used to carry out the business of discussing awareness. 1:48:15 - 1:55:15 A space between the words. I ask Enza if she reads any current books. She says her memory is no longer photographic as when she was young. Things don't stick around, even in the middle of speaking. ...